Alone

There are more than 7 billions of people in the whole wide world and Malaysia itself has an estimation of more than 29 millions. How is that people still find themselves sitting by the corner alone in the public? A simple task such as finding a companion for dinner or anything can be really exhausting.

For the past few weeks, maybe even months, I myself eating alone most of the times. There are times when I manage to snatch a friend away for a quick meal. Yet, most other times, I can't believe my only companion is my iPad which is practically useless if there's no WiFi.

Today, I had a wonderful time talking about Lara Croft with someone I just acquainted and usually, I would not reveal so much about myself in a conversation. Sometimes, I wonder if I am so miserably lonely that I couldn't care less who I socialize with anymore. It could be a total stranger for all I care.

I find this painstakingly annoying as I never face such situation before. Perhaps I did back then but it would just be a day or two being alone in front of my computer. Nowadays, I am alone almost everyday, especially in the presence of people surrounding me. Cliques here and there remind me too much of my social life in university. Furthermore, with Cyren away, I'm just down in the dirt, buried under several feet of earth.