Moving on (July Review)

Think about it. Life is all about moving on, either going from one place to another or transiting from one phase to the next. As we enter adulthood, most of us would move out of our parents' house. Even if we stay in the same spot, our personality can be influenced too. If you can recall how you were when you were but a mere child and how you are now, you might notice a vast difference. It is to my understanding as well that if we carry out similar comparison with ourselves 10 years later, the difference would grow larger. We never stay the same unless we're dead but even then, your body would decompose, transferring the energy to the soil and recycle your life force (my current perspective of life). In a nutshell, nothing stays the same. Change is everywhere.

As I have highlighted numerous times in my previous blog, I found myself changing, evolving (hopefully not devolving) into a person that I would dismiss when I was younger. People around me are changing too. Some are moving on to seek personal goals while others are changing into someone I don't recognize anymore. Of course, new people are disembarking at my doorsteps with open arms.

In the month of July, the major change for me was moving out of the place that I was staying for 4years. Imagine waking up to the same window panels overlooking a god-awful loud water theme park and the same dust bunnies collected at the corners of the room. It took me great effort to initiate a search for new place because I was so comfortable on the same old rickety bed that creaks every now and then. Alas, change was bound to happen because life would not permit it (not to mention the extortionate rent I had to pay).

In truth, I do not like some of the changes I had to go through, especially the one about the people around me. The jokes. The laughter. Even the gossips. All these activities and companionship will be missed but what kind of companion would I be if I forbid them to change, perhaps for the better? I do not like to be a caged bird myself. Funny thing is, these days, I don't mind staying a tad longer inside my cage. See, this is what I meant about changing into someone you never realize you would be.

While my laments may sound melancholic, this post is far from that. I'm still positive and happy about my life and what lies ahead. I admit I may seem frantic or panicky in the face of change but over time, I will adapt to it. Aside from the changes I had to face, I am thankful that certain things in my love life remains the same as evident during my trip to Cameron Highlands.

(P.S. Shame on you if you think this post is about me moving on from my love life :P)